Today I came home and I did something really... juvenile today. I picked up the phone and pretended to call someone and talked and talked and talked and then... I cried. And then I continued talking and crying feeling like a loser and then I put down the phone and started screaming down to people at the playground. Love their puzzled expressions. And now... here I am.
I'm so tired, confused, lost, angry. I'm pissed off with your flippant attitude. Why don't you do try, try caring? Bah. Today I saw so many people with their old clique, together, having fun. What's happening to us? Are you so absorbed in your fucking new life in your new class that you've forgotten the friends you've made in the past? We've known each other for 6 years, not including this year and I know you know I'm talking about you so stop bloody avoiding the subject. I'm so disgusted, really. Nobody knows how painful it is to tell others when they ask "Oh, is that your best friend?" It's painful because I dont know if that's the truth. Do I mean as much to you as you mean to me? It's so exhausting to be constantly giving, giving. I'm not something to be toyed with. If I mean something to you, show it. If you don't, tell me.
And to a few certain people, you don't know or understand how it feels to be so alone sometimes, so shut the hell up and do something for a change instead of apologising or making up stupid excuses.
Quote Erik from the gg books, "Fuck 'em."

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Anw, chem consultation yesterday was hilarious. Okay I wanted to put up a convo between mrs chia and a certain humanoid by the name of kamalia, but due to vehement protests it will not be posted^^
Then me and kamalia started singing unbreak my heart and F-U-N and blahblah
It was so bloody fun singing while walking to the busstop^^
I suddenly realised how much I missed laughing so hard, so carefree. Oh, whatthehell.
Somehow I feel that the convo between plankton and spongebob reminds of me and kamalia:0 Which means kamalia is now a one-eyed green organism the size of 1/2 my thumb.

Cts today : S-C-R-E-W-E-D.
A sudden wave of fatigue suddenly engulfed me while I was doing my eng and chi today. Moral of the story : I should drink coffee?
Aimless and wild ramblings during lit. Hope I do well*crossesfingers*

Oh another incident today. This person called Gloria tried to convert me to christianity today. I was in quite a bad/pissed/prickly mood so I was like thinking evill thoughts when she was talking and talking. I respect the fact that they love their religion so much and want to spread the goodness they experience to everyone, but isn't time to back off when I have emphasised that I am a Buddhist and I have my own set of beliefs? It gets rather pissing when they challenge it. There's a fine line between spreading your religion and insulting others, don't cross it.But it's so cool that they dare to approach people to get them to convert. I would never do that.
Oh I'm contradicting myself again T_T
And then she asked for my number and I gave her! My old number teehee.
But she's really cute and she's shorter than me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gwagwa. 1 year older too;)
No offence to anyone out there!